BALANCE

SO glad that yesterday is my off day. While everybody is on his way to work, I am so glad that I am able to sleep till half past nine on a monday morning...Guess I am finally reaping off the hard work of working on Sunday nite. Ha!

What I did today wasn't anything spectacular. Breakfast :coffee and biscuit. Lunch :porridge and fried eggs with cai pok. Watched a few episodes of animation (Neon Genesis)back to back...Had never been so shiok for a while alreadi... went for a swim in the hot afternoon. Had dinner with my parents b4 making my way to meet min.

Balance - not too much, not too little.
Throughout my life, I was always thinking abt the word balance and how it applies to my character, my work, my life, etc. For eg, I used balance when I am meeting up with different groups of friends. With my SIA guys, I would be talking abt how our flight goes and things to share abt. With my sec school friends, I would be talking abt the good old days, etc. With Min, I would be talking abt (*^&(*^%&^$^ NOTE : This is up to me to know, and up to you to find out. :) I also use the word balance when I am with Min. When we just started out together as a couple, I was just abt to enter NS. Poor Min can only get see mi during the weekend. Naturally, like any other girl around, she would want to maximise the time spent with mi from Sat late afternoon to Sun late afternoon. Hence I did not have time to catch up with my friends. The theory of balance took a long while to commmunicate - Min and I had our space, she had her own space, I had my own space. Now I can meet Min for the first few hour, then drink kopitiam beer with Fuhan and Keng Fei.

Balance is needed in my character too. In general, people feel that I am too formal at times. For people who do not know mi initially, they may feel that I am very "false", very "fake". This sorts of make mi unapproachable. For people who know mi, this is the way I had been talking since I was brought up from young. I am lik that one - courteous "ke4 qi4". THis problem was
brought to my attention again when I attended the 21 day OBS course in P.Ubin. I never know that being myself can impose so much hastle to my friends around mi. On the contrary, I also believe that I am who I am - Yingwei, Engwei, Aliying, Chong. I came up with the solution that I felt most desired - still be courteous (eg, greeting the elders, saying thank you to the cleaning Auntie) but also be one who can be approached and be chilled out with.. The balanced Yingwei, Engwei, Aliying, CHong, I seek to be.

But I do understand that Balance = fn (temperature, perf, temper, location, feeling, emotions, x to the power of infinity) - where x is an unknown that Aliying is still finding out what it is....
I do understand that I cannot be balanced all the time. That is why it is still balancing. Got it? There is no such thing called the ultimate balance!


THings to look out for this week
Harry Potter and the globet of fire
Project Home 2006 - scrap book
Makan with my family

Aliying